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For most of my life, I always identified only as a woman (AFAB).

If there's something that I truly hate is gender roles. Dolls is for girls. Cars is for boys. The woman take care of the kids while the man works out of the house to sustain the family.

When I was a kid, I always wanted the "boys aligned" toys: toy swords, cars... But I couldn't have because I am a girl and not a boy.

To be honest, I still identify as a woman, but later in my life I realized that, indeed, I am a man too (bigender).

I felt dysphoria recently, the urge to cut my long hair into a more masculine look. God, sometimes I want to have no breasts at all. And sometimes I feel good with the breasts.

I also feel weird towards some woman and me. I noticed that some woman tend to sexualize more themselves (and that's cool, do whatever you want, ig). I mean, I do that to myself when I'm alone... But, enough detail for now, I also noticed that I don't like a lot, or, at least, not a huge fan of "woman aligned" things. Like, Hello Kitty, the pink color, the ones I can example it for reference. Again, that's cool if you like it. I'm just saying that I feel weird not liking it.

I know it feels like "regular dude". It just... I want to say it? I really, really don't know how to put in words. This being my first blog post doesn't help a lot with the fact that my writing is very 'rusted'.

Also, I'm very sorry if I talked shit. I just wanted to vent a little about my gender feelings. Don't hesitate to contact me to talk about this or something. My guestbook is always open.

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